A new divide I created within, to make sense of the infinite futility that lies inside…



Close your eyes
Listen to my lullaby
Breathe me in
When I inhale you
Taste my lips
The world outside is cold
Safe we are
Inside the warmth we know
I will push if you pull
Breathe me in
I will inhale you
Don’t be afraid
I am here
I am in you

After The Storm

Thunder rumbled in
Lightning cracked the earth
The rains washed away
All that we built on the surface
Until all that remained
Was just a little isle
Barely enough for us to survive

I held you close
A shelter from the storm
While the emptiness consumed
All we couldn’t face alone
Little by little
The tides pushed harder
My world slipped out of place
As you slipped through my fingers
I tried to hold on
But my weakness became stronger
I had to give in
To the emptiness I surrendered

The sun shone later
Failing to light a bleaker world
Blistering all sense of purpose
To remind what was taken

I have passed many a season
Staring at empty horizons
Our memories setting like the sun
I will wait for you
As the skies turn shades darker
Until I am all but consumed
Yes I will wait for you
Until forever

Waiting the Storm by Ictenbey

The Last Dance

I turn my camera on by Slightly Amazing Grace

I see you dance in the light where the world is yours
In false pretense, I sit in the dark watching my cure
Listening to your heart sing in a cadenced melody
Watching your eyes, interpreting their story
As you pick up your steps, you brighten your play
Glowing brighter than the light in your way
Illuminated in brightness, white light blindness
The words best said are the ones unspoken
The path best walked is the one not chosen
I wake up to a room of numbness and fear
And the sound of your silence
Reminds me the end is near

Serpentine Lullaby

Poison in my veins
Darkness in my eyes
Softly lulling me to sleep
Your serpentine lullaby

Whispers come in hisses
Kisses turn to bites
Choke me with your caress
Your serpentine lullaby

Agony becomes pleasure
Pleasure I can’t defy
Breathe me in, pull me closer
Your serpentine lullaby

I sink right into you
Wrap myself around inside
Pull you apart from the seams
My serpentine lullaby

The Chase

Fighting gravity, lose the white veil
Letting go of soul, let it fly
Into the reverie that I was promised
I’m lost again, a victim of my crime

Hide the pretentious scars
Heal myself on the surface
I need the deeper wounds to survive

I am only human, to myself I must remind
I will become what I’m chasing
A victim of my own crime

I feel separation when body meets floor
Surrendered from above
I can only see what I don’t feel
I can only feel what I don’t see
Weary yet blissful, a victim of my crime
I can’t save me, but I want you to try

I’ve touched the sky and kissed rock bottom
Looking for perfection in between
I want to feel your warmth for one last time
Save me, help me make up my own mind
I am what I am chasing
The victim of my crime


I wear my heart on your sleeve
Act on your whims, thrust your blade in
Pierce my flesh and watch me bleed
Twist it around, let the blood ooze out
Onto your hands
See them glisten in the light
I see your delight
My pain is your pleasure
But a shadow in your eyes
To see me smile
With a bleeding heart
As you pined for my pain
You pined for redemption
But no, dear friend
We are far from the end
I see your confusion
Let me explain
You perceived
Your purpose to be complete
As mine bleeds to death
But take this as a lesson
You cannot kill
What is already dead


This moment
This frame of mind
I’m inside
Right here
Right now
Press pause and keep
My mind from running
Past this perfect place
I’ve created in my head
Stop the pretense
Kill the voices
Let me linger in this bliss
So that I can fight
The sin inside
With this strong serenity
This calm, this harmony
Right here
Right now
This is where I want to be
This is how I want to think
I just want my mind to feel
Free, again
The way it used to feel

You Are My Anarchy

I know your desires
like you know mine
I see through what
your fear hides
Don’t be afraid
for I have no shame
Let go of yours
it’s only a facade

You used to be twisted
How did you unwind?
Was it that easy
to resist your desires?
Teach me how
so that I can too
Maybe then I can stop
being a fool for you

But I still see
the sparks in your eyes
I long to set them ablaze
and stop living this lie
I wonder if you’ll follow
if I lead you in
Or will you choose to ignore
lock our world in a dream

But I believe in destiny
and I believe in tragedy
You won’t see me give in
for I see you linger
From now to infinity
Until I am your surrender
And you are my anarchy


Come, hide all your battle scars
Dispossess weapons of yesterday’s war
Freedom never came for free
Bloodstains never leave the hand that sinned
Good is cursed with a voice
Evil is blessed with a gun
Gunshots speak louder than words
The last laugh is enjoyed by a bullet
Silenced without right
Until Good gives up the fight
When Violence is questioned
Silence becomes the right answer

We are free when we shut our eyes
To the failing world outside
We are free when we shut our ears
To the sound of Injustice’s cheers
We are free when our voices sleep
Inside a dream of corruption and deceit
We are free when we shut our minds
Believe in all the worldly lies
We are free when we believe
That the world is just
We are free when we believe
That in silence we can trust

Happy Independence Day. We are all free.

Addictions & Asylums

I’m weary
Oh so weary
Sick of all this white
Can you take me
Somewhere dark
I want to rest my eyes

I’m helpless
Oh so helpless
This numbness can’t be right
I lost the friends I had
Inside my head
Somewhere down the line

I’m afraid
Oh so afraid
Of the demons dressed in white
They frighten me
So much more than
The ones that come out at night

I’m broken
Oh so broken
Can you fix me back to right?
Your remedy
Took away my reality
I’ve forgotten how to smile

I am empty
Oh so empty
Help me feel for one last time
Please inject me
With the life I had
I just want to die tonight

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